February 3, 2003

Test was CANCELLED!! they sent us home. during the 1.5 hours that I was there it must have dumped about 2 inches of snow. nothing for me, being used to huge amounts of snow for ages, but the Scots up here freak out where there is snow. yahoo. course still have to take it, but I did a bit of studying last night even though I could not focus and did not want to study. More of it stuck than I thought, because on the drive to school I was repeating all the things out loud to myself while driving and I had not looked at it since last night. so more got into the cracks than I thought. should be able to get it all sorted so that I know it perfect and that way I won’t have to do any remediation. going to suggest that we do the test that was supposed to be next week maybe on the Thursday of that week. otherwise we will end up doing it the last day of class and if there is any remediation to do, don’t know how that will be accomplished. got last weeks big test back. had a few bits wrong, in fact found some bits that were wrong that she missed and I marked them wrong and then corrected them when I did the rest of my remediation. so that test is all sorted. turned in my five reports and all the bits. told her to assess me on the last two things with my client. so if she is happy with my reports, it is done. Except the two tests that have been postponed in anatomy and the last couple of treatments for my last three clients. those will be finished soon. only have 7 more treatments to do over the next 2.5 weeks. so all totaled if they agree to do the test in her other class on that Thursday that I am thinking I could finished finito by 20th and won’t even have to go to class on the 24th of feb. yahoo and double yahoo. Woke up in intense pain in my back today. it is wrapping around and making it difficult to breath. I think since I had a bit of ibuprofen last night when I went to bed that I must have slept and not moved all night and my back didn’t like that. everything is starting to seize up, even my calf in my leg is cramping and I am limping. geesh need to just put me in a body bag now. had a friend/neighbor who is a nurse come over and realign my back. she isn’t trained how to do it but I told her and she did it and the vertebrae all clicked and moved. pain instantly gone. she was freaked because she could hear and feel them move, but it didn’t hurt. wow do I feel better. I am really interested to see what my back will be like once I have more weight off. none of my back pain is because of my weight, but I wonder how much pain will be relieved. hopefully enough for me to live the rest of my life, and not be in the pain that I live with everyday. course if I manage to not have any more car accidents, tumbles down stairs, falls in the yard, or other things that my accident prone self seems to be plagued with I sure that will help immensely. I have fallen off stairs, stools, chairs, had numerous car accidents in my younger days, been thrown from a horse when I was little, and the biggy…fell out of a tree and landed on my bum directly onto a big rock…oh forgot when I was hiking in the mountains in Peru I fell down a landslide and just managed to stop and later that same day fell down a bunch of these ancient steps that have been carved into the mountainside..I did manage to stop after bouncing down the steps with a metal framed back pack on my back just inches before going over the cliff. I stopped because I ran into another rock. you see it is not the driving, walking, climbing, hiking or the biking that I have problems with….it is all the stopping bits when I hit the rock, wall, granite, other cars, ground..ect that gets me. my dad always says that he doesn’t like to be around me for long periods of time, bad things happen around me. I don’t know what he is talking about. and yes, I want to be skinnier again so that I can be more fit and get back to all that. I want to redo the hike in Peru through the mountains. found a wonderful company here that does ONLY Peruvian tours and we can go and do the trip again. well AGAIN for me first time for husband. and I want to hike the Grand Canyon, Yosemite park, yellow stone park and hike in Mammoth Caves again. I have done them twice but husband had not ever. so many things to climb so little time. ahah I want to go white water rafting. same friend/neighbor that helped me out with my back this year is going white water rafting this summer with her hubby. she said that they had a devil of a time getting insurance because the rapids are 4 and 5’s. well 5 is considered extreme sport..so she got extreme sport insurance. cool. now is that posh or what. did any of you see XXX. besides the fact that Vin Disel is so yummy, I just loved the extreme sports. yeah baby!!! I want to do that all again. and some of it for the first time. It is just my body that doesn’t cooperate, it can’t keep up with me. I am a bit hyper today. yesterday had wheat. well as you saw I was so scattered and unfocused, melancholy and feeling off and sick. just wanted to listen to my heavy metal cds with all my candles burning and sit with my eyes closed rather than study. so I compromised, I turned the music down a bit, but did the rest. so back to the no wheat again. haven’t’ had any today. but did have a choc bar. so a bit hyper right now. would go do my salsa dvds, but yeah..did I forget to tell you? I still have NO dvd. small wonder huh? I think it must be a figment of my imagination. but I do have the receipt to prove that not only did I order it but that I paid for it. they promised today..after 4pm..we will see. it is 3:15pm. time is a ticking. have glorious plans tonight. going to light a fire in the fireplace AND leave the central heating on full blast. bloody cold here today. snuggle down to watch one of my fav shows and tape it for my hubby. light about half a dozen candles and snuggle with all three border collies on my futon with my two fleece blankies. yeah….I am ready after all the stress of those reports this week. going to veg and I am just loving the thought of it. see you later, dazzle Ps..do you guys like all my rambling on about things and all the emotions? I am good at telling stories but didn’t know if you guys like it or are tired of it already. ahahah

January 30, 2003

Today has been a weird day. Very cold and windy and blustery outside. Seems cold in parts of the house, even though the central heat has been on all day. must be the fireplaces and wind coming down the chimneys or something. Been lazy, dogs and I have been ensconced on the futon with several fleece blankies watching tear jerky movies. Not exactly any motivation to go outside and work out. No news on the DVD front either. this coming Tuesday will be 4 WEEKS since they took the dvd to sort the player out. It was supposed to be a multi regional one but we never had the opportunity to check out a different region dvd until we went to the states for Christmas this year. got home with 12 dvds and nothing would work. arrrgh. so started this whole saga with this company on the 2 of jan and still nothing sorted. I only have ONE exercise video..a bellydancing one which is brand new and a bit difficult to do with a back that is horribly sore. so the other exercise ones that i have are all dvds. can’t do anything until I get it back. freezing and horrid outside so going for a walk is out. and sold my multi gym right before christmas and the movers accidently picked up my free weights along with the gym pieces. when I notified the guy that bought the gym, he refused to give the weights back. what a chancer! so can’t even do any weight lifting now. I am so annoyed. I am on hold AGAIN with this stupid ignorant company and so tired of them jerking me around. they say they will call back and then don’t. I have had about 4-5 different supposed delivery dates and never does a dvd player show up. they say they have manually sorted this out and that my dvd player will be here tomorrow morning. I told her that I will not hold my breath since this is the 5th or 6th date they have given me. but if it does come, than I can do some more exercising. some good news:yesterday i did walk down to the doctors for my appointment. not a huge walk but it was some. and the day before i was doing some abdominal exercises..so trying to get some in even though everything is conspiring against me lately. gave up wheat. none today at all that I am aware of. feel better already actually. but it is hard to cut wheat out of your diet. some more good news: when I was at the docs yesterday found out that my blood pressure is remaining to stay more or less low. not as low as it normally would be for me, but in an acceptable range. don’t want it getting high than I might have to take medication for it. also my weight was not as high as Mr P scales led me to belive. I have been weighed at my GPs for the last several months and they are more or less the same as the dieticians that i have used for the last 1.5 years..and they all say that I was about 10-11 pds lighter than what Mr P scales did. so either the jeans and shoes I wore that night were really heavy or the scales were not calibrated the same. but that at least way lays my fear of thinking that i had gained about 1.5 stones in about 3 weeks. making some headway on the school work too. must keep up with that since only have a few weeks left to go. finished two reports combined together and have started working on two more. have to start studying for an anatomy and physiology test that is on monday. this one will be a hard one. even more good news: got the loan application done yesterday on the phone and it was approved..so waiting for the paper work to come in the mail the next few days. once that is here and signed that will be the loan more or less sorted for the operation. when they send the check, will just put it all on the visa card..and that will pay it off. so when it is time for the operation, will just use the visa card. no point in getting the money and sitting it in the bank for 2-3 months, it won’t earn any interest there. so the best thing it to pay off the credit card. what I save in interest for 2-3 months that I normally would have paid will pay for our trip down and back to Leeds and for part of my husbands accomidations. cool huh? I have noticed that with doing some of my abdominal exercises that my back doesn’t appear to be quite so sore. will keep up with that, so when this weather calms down in a day or so, or..and that is a big OR I get the dvd player back I can start doing some proper exercising. well off I go for more studying.